Lately I've been doing a whole lotta nothing, and that usually spells trouble because when I'm doing a whole lotta nothing, I start doing a whole lotta thinking. And thinking is never good. Much better to be blissfully ignorant and unaware. Just kidding, I don't really believe that. However I am guilty, especially lately, of extreme and utter apathy. And fo' sho' that ain't me.
(Here I go, again, about to draw parallels with life and basketball...)
I love basketball. Basketball is my passion. I'm good at it because I'm passionate about it. Passion fuels me, it motivates me. Basketball lights a fire under me and gets me moving. Man, if only I was 6'8" and not 5'8". But anyway... back to a whole lotta nothing. I'm not playing basketball this winter season, and it's been quite a while since I haven't been on a team. I'm not used to this. I almost feel... empty. As a result, I don't have basketball to feed my passion, which in turn is transforming my passion into the aforementioned apathy.
"But Glenn," you say, "you can always play basketball by yourself." This is true, but much like sex, basketball just isn't as much fun by myself. Although it's still fun. Not that I know anything about sex. I'm SFC for Chrissakes! I mean... not that I don't know anything about sex, it's just that I've taken a... you know what, I'm spinning off on a tangent here. Back to my point.
What the heck was my point? Oh yes. Apathy.
I abhor apathy. I loathe impassiveness. I despise lack of interest. In essence, I am an anti-Vulcan. (Oh man, I said 'Vulcan.' It's been a while since I made a reference to Star Trek.) I don't have basketball to shield me from apathy, so what can I do? Who or what can keep me from becoming completely uncaring and unfeeling?
God? Yeah, well... God's cool and all, but I veiw Him more as an old friend that's been trying to get me to do good since I was a kid. Sometimes I listen, usually I don't. I will freely admit that He's given me a whole lotta shit that I've taken (and am taking) for granted. I certainly could be passionate about God by doing His work. I will do His work -- I kinda am already. But to do His work, I have to show God's love; and to show God's love I gotta love thy neighbor.
"Love Thy Neighbor." I have lots of neighbors. That's whole mess of people I gotta love. I ain't Superman. That task seems nigh on impossible. So I guess I gotta limit myself to a small group of people for now.
Or just one person. That, I can do.
Posted by glenn at January 3, 2005 06:18 AMso where do we put in our applications for that just one person?
Posted by: Jenny at January 3, 2005 10:25 AM